17Feb27 I’ve been busy (part 3 – Art)

Forwards and onwards.
[Nothing to do with the rest of this, but I just wanted to mention Wolfenstein: the New Order is a f**kin’ awesome game. Absolutely splendiforous. Love it. Not enough of that. More Captain America punching nazis and his bi ass (can anyone comment me a link? Cuz I swear they made it canon a while back, like a few years?) will have my heart forever.]

This one resonated with me a bunch because I really, Really struggle with making OCs. I make mini-mes that are more, or slightly-less-more, ‘Me’. Autistic, fractured, and inconsistent. Human as far as I’m aware, and would hazard as guess as such.
Besides we could all be living in a simulation, [Wikipedia link], [PBS link], and [8-bit Philosophy YT] plus [Tedx Talk YT]. All these links and I still don’t have a master sword. (I want a goddess sword, though, for spoiler-related sad reasons T_T )
or discussing robot rights,
I think we’re all right now in 2017 at least: human as f**k.

Anyway, Original Characters. I … kinda suck at it.
I’m autistic af (altho some fellow autistic folx may fight me on it, which is perfectly fair tbh. Compared to ‘normal’ people, I’m autistic as f**k, put it that way.)

It’s really, unbelievably difficult for me to suss out:

  • motivations
  • intention
  • ‘why X person feels Y because Z’
  • or anything along the lines of — I don’t know…

what enables people to write different characters believably, and evocatively?

Moving on, I’ll briefly conclude that I will be returning to the above video for guidance on what not to do when I start making OCs, adoptables, and self-inserts – because the latter-most is bound to happen.

And now for something completely different. A really poppin’, upbeat optimistic jaunty number, by the name of Candyland, from music artist Tobu.

Here’s a link to this one digital artist who seems to have themself organised. I just thought I’d include their link here in the Art posts, because it’s broadly how I want my channel (and ‘brand’? I suppose?) to be doing in a few years, or several.

Like, this one, I kinda disagree. I might convince myself otherwise as I work this out in typing, but I think (to begin with?) that, maybe non-[whatever group] people shouldn’t be banned from, but the works of people from [that group] should be uplifted and amplified by people from outside that group.

Like, I’m autistic, but not Black or Muslim. If I were, then obviously there’d be no problem for me to portray characters with that background, and / or religious view on life.
But it does kinda piss me off when people like Steven Moffat write a Clearly Aspergic or Autistic Character in the not-plagiarism-but-it-kinda-feels-like-it BBC TV re-imagining of the eponymous (the name of the character is also the name of the show) Sherlock.

“High-functioning sociopath, actually”, my large butt. F off with that nonsense. Gid oouutta heeeuh¬¨! (Accented: Get out of here!)
Aspergers and [apparently either unaware or not] proud. I mean — I’m proud, but clearly Mr Can-Absolutely-Write-Realistic-Women-No-Really-Stop-Laughing has no idea how to properly relate an imperfect character to us.

Now, full disclosure: I haven’t seen the last (1, 2? 3?) seasons. I did stop watching after… I wanna say the fall? But then he came ba-ack (back) and Moriarty did a thing (also this video has a really sexy Moriarty. They’re all really awesome and must have been hard-working to make such a comprehensive production. Go!)

Anyway, right. So, like I’d have to do a crap-ton of research (like, with Actual People, not just The Internet / Actually Just Googling the First Link that Aligns with my Current Biases and Prejudices. This link is not entirely relevant but I can’t find the proper web comic strip that I’m referencing here ><*) in order to get it right.

Er, research, have to be respectful… I think my point was that it’s hard work (certainly more so to get used to) trying to juggle all these plates (isn’t life. ūüėź ‘ung’ face) and also actually create whatever it is to a good standard that you’re happy with.

People are lazy. It sounds like a really bad idea to say “Yeah! Hey, it’s okay to just pick whatever traits you want, and then continue on making what could end up with off-collar inconsistencies and implausible reactions.”

Like, I might be Puerto Rican, but that doesn’t mean I understand Puerto Rican culture, or have any idea how [someone who grew up there] would view the world or understand certain ideas. We all have at least slightly different interpretations of things, due to our initial experiences, and how we were taught to categorise concepts. Personally, I really like thinking about how language affects thought formation, but also the flipside: how thought formation affects language development and evolution. I can’t find the opposite link, so here’s one that’s a broad summary, instead.

That’s the end of the art-related content, actually, so this will actually be published a good few days from when I started writing it. There will be Fun posts (as opposed to Art posts) coming in the next few days, as of when this goes out.

I hope you enjoyed my thoughts on art related things, and meandering tangents of explosive thought. There’s contact information all over everywhere on this page, but just in case you were as yet unaware: e-mail MxDozanaArt@gmail.com to let me know how you think these blog posts could be improved or focused. Consistency in terms of publishing them is… probably not going to happen.

I’m writing these as I would say them out loud, by the way, and I have an AD(H)D hospital investigation appointment coming up next month. After that, I’ll be able to say whether or not I have a diagnosis of Adult AD(H)D, the upgraded version, with a full season pass and all future DLC!

Thanks, read you soon!

Mx Dozana, of Mx Dozana Art

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17Feb26 I’ve been busy (part 2 – Art)

Phew. Jeez, my computer was icing over there, for a while.

I believe the phrase is ‘It was touch-and-go’. Okay.

Yeah, so this is going to be several posts to get through all my research and work since last time. When it’s all done, I’ll come back to each part here to insert labelled links and organize everything. *eye twitches*

Luckily, this first video of the new post is actually a pretty big influence on me since I watched it. Lineless style / flat(ish) cartoon-y is so very different from my usual aims-to-be-hyper-realistic-anime style. Not that I can quite pull off either one just yet.

I have my own chunky / chubby style, cuz that’s how I look! I’m not fat or thin. I’m just me: flabby, round, and cuddly.

When I was a kid, my mom taught me (or perhaps I heard it elsewhere) ‘chi-chis’ (Spanish? Prob not Boricua / Boriqua) for the fat rolls on one’s side.
That’s ‘chee, chee-z’, like cheese, but you say the first part twice.

I have an American East Coast accent, but I really like how Nick says ‘doing’. IDK why, it just sounds so bouncy and fun. Canadian, maybe? Like, some weird Australian? I know nothing of accents, honestly. Oh, yeah, but his tips on tightening up speech segments and leaving sections of pauses between segments are really awesome.

[Content Notice: Next link is not only NSFW, but the thumbnail is a collage of various creepy or scary imagery. I suggest scrolling all the way down, then scroll back up slowly until you reach this text again.]

Junji Ito is the epitome of this creep you tf out, scratching your skin for days, haunting you philosophically by preying on innate impulses to not ignore that Something Is Not Right. I love it. I want to be able to draw stories that delve into people’s minds and carve out their souls. I want to unnerve people with grim, inescapable realities.

NSFW link, nor really the thumbnail, actually. Sorry! I’ll have put this section with space above and below for squick-factor. Personally, I love horror and being skeeved out! Like, I like scary shit. It’s great. Really interesting and I love trying to figure out why it’s scary, or how other people’s reactions differ from mine, and where that came from. I like feeling invested in some poor sod’s nightmarish conundrums.

[Content Notice: Previous link is not only NSFW, but the thumbnail is a collage of various creepy or scary imagery. I suggest scrolling all the way down, then scroll back up slowly until you reach this text again.]

Now, onto the next one. This one’s not so much about art in general, but I find it a cautionary tale about the pitfalls of publishing and creative works in an inherently exploitative industry. I mean, aren’t they all, under capitalism?

I write that as a fond fan of Bleach, from the first introductory season (probably soon after seeing classic or now possibly cliché Death Note, I have many thoughts on that anime) to the part where they left the town and it all went weird.

I mean, crunchyroll didn’t have *have* those episodes, one or two of which actually were completely integral to the plot, ffs. Then I saw the crucial parts, then skipped over the personally-offensive (nothing truly repulsive about it to most people, I just F*~~~~~~**ing hate the gag short-attention-span style for that whole (was it ‘Karakura Town Heroes’ or something?) segment. Hated it with a passion.

But anyway, I got to the end with the … Fullbringers? Or whatever and it was just so blase, terrible, no-stakes, awful, uninteresting, cruel to the fans, cruel to Tite Kubo (altho I got a horrendous impression off his mid- to late-work from the manga. My bad, having seen this video. His earlier works looked *gorgeous*), and an insult to anime fans if not everywhere, then most-where.

Urgh! *Anger and frustration out of love and longing*

This seems like a good place to split posts, actually. See you in the interim!

17Feb25 I’ve been busy (part 1 – Art)

Too many links on the dancefloor! Too many links (NSFW link, but funny).

Hmm. I want embedded videos, but I don’t want an overloaded post. Or, like, super long. Argh. Okay, right, well, let’s try grouping them by ‘Actually Art Related’ and ‘Stuff wot I like an shiz’. I think AAR is gonna be super long anyway, but less long at least. ‘SwIlas’ will be bite-sized. Also Bitesize is an awesome BBC site for kids to learn from. Go through it at people. Make them leeeaa~rrn (learn)!

Be mature. Most people (probably) have mammaries. Fat deposits on chests naturally, just deal with it. It makes sense to know how to draw such globules of mass.

I can’t remember, I don’t think I was paying attention.

So. Pretty.

Er, can’t remember again. I think something about strands, grouping, and gradients?

So. Wonderful. And Lovely.

Cute cute cute forever. I love Yuuike so much. I think they were one of the first artists who inspired me to keep practicing, actually. Not totally sure, though.

Ah! Monster post! This is crashing my computer. Or possibly just the internet browser. Either way, I’ll write a proper dissection of my viewing habits in a coming post (later tonight)

 

More internet shenanigans

[Excerpt: I posted a TypeForm link https://mxdozana.typeform.com/to/B5Yy3o and talked about upcoming art plans, with references and links for a call-to-action.]

https://mxdozana.typeform.com/to/B5Yy3o

I’ve made a typeform, link above, and I kept it short and sweet.

Much like this post!

Thanks for reading,
Mx Dozana

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17Feb10 Onward to New Adventure!

Here’s what I’ve been working on since my birthday and anniversary:
After watching a bunch of art videos¬†(links at the end), I¬†decided to start probing my art horizons. What tf does that mean?¬† Continue reading “17Feb10 Onward to New Adventure!”