I really, really, really wish I could be anywhere near as good as Junji Ito. I want to explore the unsettling, Aware that You Exist horror and morbid curiosity. My goal is to be able to draw people in and make them feel something from my drawings, paintings, and stories.

I’m incomparably distant from his level, but holy shit it’s a dream I keep cycling back to. (As an AD(H)Der, I have a looooot of dreams, m8. It’s endlessly frustrating)



People tell me I’m “smart”, but I’m not emotionally capable of dealing with work, full of PEOPLE. And discriminatory people at that! πŸ˜ πŸ˜΅


The phrase “I’m struggling” is applicable. (Just as it has been all my life tbh) but I’ve heard family say it too often for the concept to be actively illustrated in my mind.

Life as a debt-infested graduate sucks. “Physics degrees are a good investment”, my fat autistic ass.

UBI would *actually* relieve a HUGE component of my stressors, but selfish, impulsive people are resource-grabby. Whatever.


Also I deactivated my facebook on the off chance / in the vain hope it might make me less critically depressed. If you Get Itβ„’ re: severe depression, then you know what I mean, here.

Too early to tell what the results will be, so who tf knows which habitual blue-light and dopamine-seeking activities I’m going to fill my time with, next. πŸ™ƒπŸ˜΅πŸ€”

Did I mention how terrified I am of humans and selfishness? Cuz it’s a lot.

Also I’m an immigrant, disabled, not cis, and chronically ill. I’m fucked.


I’m catsitting our family cat, so art posts (what few have existed during this latest batch of ill health) will be even more seldom (infrequent).

But yeah. Life is not fun recently.

Thanks for Reading,
Mx Dozana, of Mx Dozana Art

If, by chance, dark energy could be used to build the first warp drive,

and if, again by chance, this dark energy was also what was powering the exponentially expanding (observable) universe,

Then would we be able to slow or halt the (observable) universe’s expansion by using the dark energy as fuel (to stretch and squeeze space in a bubble around spaceships) to warp to distant places?


In which different kinds of survival skills are discussed. Being able to navigate PIP and ESA are a hell of a set of survival skills! Also how to produce art or varying media, how to record your screen as video into .flv, .avi, .mov, and convert to .mp4, or self-publish and promote online!