The NHS is amazing and we all need to support it

https://www.theguardian.com/society/nhs

NHS FTW (comprehension notes are at the end)

I just finished my physics degree!!

I have no idea how because I only (finally) received my AD(H)D diagnosis a few months after graduating (thank you selfish, impulsive Tories – /sarc)

Open University has accepted me onto their MSc Science, as I squeaked by with a 2:2 – their minimum direct entry requirements ๐Ÿ˜…

Duloxetine withdrawals are hell and I cannot describe the immense buoying of mood and mental flexibility after changing from antidepressants to AD(H)D medication.

My goal is to study how medical institutions work, and use this to educate people and change the medical establishment for the better. I want more empathetic, holistic, person-centred and evidence-based medicine. And I want it to be accessible to everyone and free at the point of use!

So basically Clement Attlee and [will add other dude when I find his name: Aneurin Bevan] are my role models / heroes.

The NHS history (1948-1959) – NHS England – NHS Choices

๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ˜ป๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ

๐Ÿ‘ฉ๐Ÿฝโ€๐Ÿ”ฌ๐Ÿ‘จ๐Ÿฝโ€๐Ÿ”ฌ๐Ÿ‘ฉ๐Ÿฝโ€โš•๏ธ๐Ÿ‘จ๐Ÿฝโ€โš•๏ธ๐Ÿš‘๐Ÿฅ๐Ÿจ๐Ÿฉ๐Ÿ’Š๐Ÿ’‰๐ŸŒก๐Ÿ”ฌ๐Ÿšฐโฑ๐Ÿ’ป๐Ÿ’พ๐Ÿ“ ๐Ÿ”๐Ÿ’–โ˜ฎ๏ธ๐Ÿ’Ÿโš›๏ธโ˜ข๏ธโ˜ฃ๏ธ๐Ÿ’ฏ

Aneurin Beva and Clement Attlee are babes. Real MVPs. Leg(ends)! http://www.nhs.uk/NHSEngland/thenhs/nhshistory/Pages/NHShistory1948.aspx

For screen readers and non-fluent English speakers: 

FTW can mean any of “for the win”, “fuck the world”, or “for the world”. I have no idea which use is most common at the moment, so I generally use it as an emphatic assertion of the preceding statement.

AD(H)D is Attention Deficit Disorder and Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder; 

2:2 or 2(ii) or “two, two” is a (Higher Education) university degree classification, which is below a 1* for “starred First”, 1 for “First Class”, 2:1 or 2(i) for “Upper Second Class”, and above a 3rd for “Third Class Honours”, and Pass which is also called an “Ordinary (non-honours) Class” degree.

‘Babes’ usually refers to conventionally attractive people, by means of sexual, romantic, platonic, or otherwise compelling traits. (Here, I’m using it humorously to imply that their achievements, in improving social responsibility and increased welfare and wellbeing, confer interpersonal reputation – to the point that they can be considered individually attractive.)

MVP is the acronym for Most Valuable Player, referring to gamers who contribute most impact to individual or recent matches in video games.

Legend / leg (“lej”) is colloquial for people who are impressive, noteworthy, imitate-able, and / or historically influential and beneficial.

https://twitter.com/devonrle/status/869136796801798144

So it turns out my “magic pill” AD(H)D meds need to be paired with, like, actual training in how functional adults do things. Precisely. With clear, detailed instructions.

Also Tohru (the dragon maid, has orange hair, deer horns, and is very curvy! When usually “sexy” characters tend to just be top-heavy. Am I the only one who likes hips??) is quite autistic. She / they regard conversations as things to get thru and don’t understand human emotions ๐Ÿ˜…. Course, we autistics aren’t a homogenous ggroup of (misinformed) stereotypes. (That’s just the diagnostic criteria! *badum pssh* glossing over some stuff, but anyway.)

She starts out with rigid plans and tries to modify her chores from desired methods as little as possible

(obv characters can only ever be broadly pidgeon-holed, due to time, money, and medium constraints, but as far as is demonstrable: I bet she’s autistic.)

[you promised X while drunk, therefore X will happen. Devastated when X is refused]
[returns to the same sources for help on new tasks, to the detriment if her performance]
[blunt af. Did I mention the bluntness? She’s / they’re rudely direct
“She doesn’t seem to understand human emotions at all!”
“There are lots of rules in this world.”
“Humans keep making the same mistakes. Guess I’ll kill them” (she is a dragon!)

… I forgot quite what I meant to be leading up to ๐Ÿค”
Anyway, Kobayashi seems to be a tomboy, maybe? She’s not very particular about being “girly” or femme in general.

Where tf was I going with this? Anyway, I designated today as a break-from-AD(H)D meds day, and I do feel different (as in, like usual).

Mx Dozana, of Mx Dozana Art

Post Script, also I made a new e-mail address to remake a PayPal account because they screwed me over for something I don’t remember doing and literally am incapable of ever repeating. But whatever: new one is Mx.Dozana@gmail.com
For shorter and neater as well.

Might just make it my proper email for simplicity. Yay for passiwrd generators! I also recomment http://unroll.me

I love people and don’t want them to suffer

https://t.co/BaH3JRfOcQ
(it’s a Medium article. If you’re unsure: the full link is at the end of this post, for clarity.
Yes, I know it’s not “Medium, therefore alwaysย trustworthy”, but then… nothing is.
I don’t want to buy in to the “Everything is untrustworthy so follow what your government says” bullshit.
All I can suggest to you is to be mindful of your sources. Really pay attention to their stated motivations, and consider what their likely motivations could be.)

I used to hate people. I was the curmudgeonliest misanthrope, stewing with misbegotten rage and seething with contempt for everyone and everything.

I didn’t understand music, art, effectiveย altruism (think of the phrase “I want to make a difference“. The difference – compared to inaction – is the effective part. Altruism is doing something for others to improve their wellbeing or reduce harm), empathy, consideration, future-oriented thinking, or any joy more complex than “I am watching anime”, “I am playing a [single-player] video game”, or “I am petting a cat.”

And it wasn’t because I was autistic. In my opinion? It’s because I was bullied for being autistic. I was alienated, dismissed, harassed, discriminated against, and victimised –ย repeatedly –ย in roughly that order.
BUT, while I might once have ranted about the injustice of it all, naming everyone in turn an idiot or an asshole,

Someone once told Young Me that I was always complaining about howย everyone was either ‘an idiot or an asshole’.
And, I mean, being super-reductive about it, you could make an argument for the ills of the world being due to either ignorance or malice.
(“Are you incompetent, or are you malicious?” is a hell of a loaded phrase XD)

I’m gonna consider (over-?) reductionism a cognitive bias, for now. But more about those tomorrow! Well, in a bit for me, but you folx will see it tomorrow.

It bothers me to see people upset. I feel called upon to do what I can to help fix it or at least remedy some of the effects. Perfection in a physical sense doesn’t exist, but ‘better’ is always an option, and that’s my dailyย goal.

Thanks for Reading and I hope you enjoyed it! โค

Mx Dozana, of Mx Dozana Art

Full link, as promised: https://medium.com/@agenda4humanity/5-things-you-need-to-know-about-the-uns-agenda-for-humanity-42b89fc5c9ed

 

But what about that experiment where they covered a cat’s eye from birth, and the otherwise healthy organ deteriorated due to lack of use?

Would Mary ever be able to even see the apple?

When (some) hard of hearing and d/Deaf people acquire hearing aids, I’ve read that a lot of time and practice must occur to train them to be able to interpret the digitized static into words and sounds

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mGYmiQkah4o&feature=share

Whenever I write something, I spend a decent amount of time searching for the *most* accurate, *most* precise words and phrasing

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MTMJygaGCBE&feature=share

I really, really, really wish I could be anywhere near as good as Junji Ito. I want to explore the unsettling, Aware that You Exist horror and morbid curiosity. My goal is to be able to draw people in and make them feel something from my drawings, paintings, and stories.

I’m incomparably distant from his level, but holy shit it’s a dream I keep cycling back to. (As an AD(H)Der, I have a looooot of dreams, m8. It’s endlessly frustrating)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VekSnrkVo0w&feature=share

People tell me I’m “smart”, but I’m not emotionally capable of dealing with work, full of PEOPLE. And discriminatory people at that! ๐Ÿ˜ ๐Ÿ˜ต

https://twitter.com/devonrle/status/867879356823203844

The phrase “I’m struggling” is applicable. (Just as it has been all my life tbh) but I’ve heard family say it too often for the concept to be actively illustrated in my mind.

Life as a debt-infested graduate sucks. “Physics degrees are a good investment”, my fat autistic ass.

UBI would *actually* relieve a HUGE component of my stressors, but selfish, impulsive people are resource-grabby. Whatever.

FML.

Also I deactivated my facebook on the off chance / in the vain hope it might make me less critically depressed. If you Get Itโ„ข re: severe depression, then you know what I mean, here.

Too early to tell what the results will be, so who tf knows which habitual blue-light and dopamine-seeking activities I’m going to fill my time with, next. ๐Ÿ™ƒ๐Ÿ˜ต๐Ÿค”